I am a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique practitioner. This is the second part of a session with a young woman who to protect her privacy, I call "Star." I shared the first part of this session recently; her experience as a member of the Roman guard assigned to protect Caesar.
Here is the story of a woman who described herself as an Earth Mother and the information she received by bringing this experience more clearly into awareness of the life that she is living now.
STAR: I'm in the woods. Deep woods. Very primordial with the moss and the giant trees. The trees are so old, they're huge. They're so strong and powerful. This is such a powerful nature place.
G: So there is mosses, rocks.
STAR: And it has that smell of the dirt and leaves. That great smell. I feel so comfortable there.
G: Okay, so this is a place you have come to often, this place is familiar to you?
STAR: I lived there. I have a house there. I'm a woman.
G: This is your home. You're a woman. Are you a young woman or are you older?
STAR: I think I'm a bit older. I get the impression of like herbs, of herbalism, bottles. I have very long, wavy dark hair, its kind of wildish. Like I don't really care what I look like.
G: You're living out there, are you by yourself?
STAR: Yes, but a lot of people come to see me. I have a lot of social interaction because people come to see me. Because I know a lot about herbs and healing and plants and I am really connected with the animals. I don't eat animals. At all.
G: So you're a vegetarian?
STAR: Yes, I don't eat animals. So the animals know me.
G: They're not scared of you.
STAR: No. And I feel like I have been there for a long time in this one place.
G: Do you feel like you're a human? That you have a regular human body, you're as big as a human?
STAR: But I'm not very tall. I'm not a pretty person.
G: So you're a shorter woman with long dark hair, but you don't put a lot of stock in your looks.
STAR: I don't even think about it. Maybe I do look alright. I don't know, that's not my thing. My thing is the fascination with nature. And the forces of nature. I like to share that with people because the people that come to see me don't know these things.
G: They come to you for information and help?
G: How long have you been here?
STAR: A very long time.
G: Do you feel like you've been living this way since you were first born? Like maybe your family lived here with you to begin with? Do you have parents, brothers, sisters?
STAR: I think they lived nearby. I feel like I grew up nearby but not in the woods, we were in the sun.
Like we were more out- we were outdoor people but my family was more like out in the field.
G: And you came to the wooded area.
STAR: I was a little odd. I was always going off because the woods were nearby. I used to get in trouble for it (laughs) because I was supposed to be doing things. I couldn't help it. I was so fascinated with it. It would always pull me in. I could just look at everything. I was fascinated with every little bit of life. Just how beautiful everything worked together.
G: Do you feel like you had a teacher that talked to you about the use of herbs, how did you learn to use them? Maybe there was a person from the village or your parents that helped you?
STAR: I don't know.
G: That's okay. But you're at the point now where you're living out on your own.
STAR: They think I'm a little strange.
G: Your parents?
Yes. Yes. But they like me, they love me. I think at this point – maybe my parents aren't alive anymore. They loved me but thought I was a little strange.
G: You weren't interested in doing girly things, getting married and having babies...
STAR: Right. Instead of being dirty all the time and having crazy hair, dirty fingernails.
G: Being so connected with the earth. Do you feel like you have any other friends who feel this way?
STAR: It's weird I keep feeling like I have (name's a friend) coming to mind. He's not in any other form but itself.
G: So you feel him around you but he's not in the body that you know him in.
STAR: I see him like he's helping me, we do this together. He's there. He's a part of this. And I'm not alone. He has his own thing. The people that come to see me aren't just random strangers. They're people that I know. They come from the town they travel out there to get help from me because they know I know this stuff.
G: So they're coming if one of their family members is ill?
STAR: I think they also come because I offer wisdom to them because I'm in the woods all the time. It's something about being connected and they don't know exactly what it is. And I don't know even really know really what it is. It is just something that I do.
G: You're connected with the earth, do you feel like it's something to do with the stars also?
STAR: I think it's definitely that but it's more of a wholism thing, like I feel like I understand it more now. I like all of it equally because it's all one thing.
G: Like the balance of alchemy, you're tying it all together.
STAR: Yes, the wholeness of it. That's how I help people. I understand that everything is a whole thing and that's why they get these illnesses because they don't have a sense of the whole thing, they don't feel it.
G: Yes. So like in homeopathy, how you're looking at everything, looking at the energy to see what's lacking. Do you feel like this is something that you spend your whole life doing?
STAR: Yes because I like the people but I don't want to live amongst them because I'm not like them.
G: And they're not scared of you?
STAR: No, I think they might think I'm goofy, you know - funny, odd, but in an endearing way not like a scary way.
G: Like she does her own thing but they appreciate the insight.
STAR: I think they know that I know my stuff. Like, oh, she knows her stuff though so I don't care if she's a bit strange.
G: That's nice. You're in a village that is very tolerant.
STAR: They know me. They have known me for a long time so they know. It's not like I'm new to them so they're not afraid of me.
G: Because they know your parents, your family.
STAR: Yeah, then these are the kids that are my parents' friends.
G: That's nice that you were able to be accepted, and not be threatened, express yourself however you wanted to, right? You could go off into the woods do what you wanted to do and your parents were tolerant of you.
STAR: I feel like maybe somewhere in the town there are people that wouldn't approve of me. They just don't come out there. They pretend that they don't know that I'm there. Maybe they don't like it so much but they don't want to deal with it. And to people that come there, they keep it a secret.
G: So you're somewhat protected?
STAR: Yes, because they know that I really help them but they know that some people don't approve of it. Because I'm kind of a wild woman. I'm not married. I'm not controllable. They might not like that so much.
G: Living on your own you know how to take care of yourself. You don't need to depend on someone to take care of you.
STAR: I live with the land, in harmony with it. I can feel when things are right. I can feel when things are in harmony so I try to maintain that all the time.
G: Because you're interconnected, that's why you don't kill animals or anything like that.
STAR: But I have this man - I don't know if he lives with me. I feel like he doesn't but we do work together.
G: So you have similar interests?
STAR: Yeah and we like each other but I'm not a married person. I won't follow those rules.
G: You're not committed to him in that way.
STAR: Yes, we like each other. We just like each other, so it's okay.
G: He will come by and you can sit and talk with him. Maybe he'll show you some new things and you'll share your things with him. Do you feel like he's someone that you're romantically involved with.
STAR: I don't know. He's just there. I feel like we share a lot of wisdom with each other and it's really intellectual, like a sharing of knowledge. But I really respect it and I value it. Because I'm valued for that, for my knowledge. Not because I have babies or because I do something. I do something different. Like I nurture the community.
G: You spend your time gaining knowledge and then you share it, give it back to people.
STAR: Yes. It's very nice but it's eccentric. I can see the house is like – it's just weird because it's like it's got curved edges. It's not a square house. It's got a lot of bent wood, like bent branches or something and the branches are almost kind of rustic. There's a lot of herbs hanging from the ceiling and all these jars and cool stuff. And there's books in there and stuff that we write down. I guess we write down things when we figure things out.
G: You're putting a lot of information together then aren't you?
STAR: Yes, there's a lot of knowledge there of really good, like earthy knowledge.
G: You're spending your whole life putting this all together, so you're also recording this.
STAR: Right. There's a table with papers on it. So I'm educated, I can read and write but it's a different world where women aren't treated the same. I'm not afraid but I'm supposed to be. I'm supposed to be careful but I'm not being careful.
G: Do you sort of feel like, why should you be?
STAR: I just feel like the knowledge is so important.
G: You have a big task.
STAR: I feel like it's so important to share it, to keep it, and respect it.
G: It's important to keep doing what you're doing and share it with others.
STAR: So that everyone knows that they can have this knowledge. That it's not secret. That everyone should have it.
G: You're not hoarding it for yourself.
STAR: No one should use it for power. It should be free. This knowledge should be free to everyone.
I move her ahead to another important day in this lifetime.
STAR: There's a child but it's not my child. Like a child that's found her way to me. She wants to train with me, she wants to learn about this. She's like me. She's the first that I've ever met like me.
G: So she has the same inclinations that you did, when you were young.
STAR: I feel like I'm looking at myself. It feels good to know that there's someone else that's interested and is fascinated by the same things.
G: Right. And she's probably amazed that you have all this stuff that she's interested in.
STAR: She's like that little tomboy type, just like me. Like she doesn't care what anybody thinks.
G: She's looking around at your stuff and your books
STAR: She just wants to touch everything. She's like, what's this? What's that?
G: You're not afraid she's going to make a mess?
STAR: No, this is good. It's kind of messy in there anyways. It's not really neat, it's like a workshop. It's like a combination of a workshop, a lab and a kitchen.
G: That's how you live, it's what makes you happy. Does she feel like she wants to stay around there, then and you'll let her?
STAR: Well, she keeps coming back.
G: So she doesn't live there, she's just coming to be trained.
STAR: Well, I don't even think of it as a formal thing. She just keeps coming back and we talk. It's very informal.
G: You haven't set up classes or anything like that?
STAR: No, she's just curious. She's curious and fun and she's fun to talk to because she's really feisty and I like that.
G: That sounds good.
STAR: The guy likes her, too. The guy that is like (friend's name) but it's not him. He likes her too because she makes it fun. It's just been us for such a long time and sometimes she says things that we hadn't thought of and it makes us smarter.
G: Because she's giving you a different perspective. And in explaining things to her you're able to sort things out better in your own mind, come up with questions and solutions you hadn't thought of.
STAR: Yes. It was already interesting but this makes it more fun, more playful. Not that I wasn't playful already but I just didn't have people to play with. I was doing healing work. I feel myself being very teasing with people, you know just so that they don't take their things too seriously – so they're not scared. And she just brings more of that to it. That it's not serious, that it is better to make people less afraid, to let them laugh.
G: To ease their fears.
STAR: Yes. And it works.
G: So this guy is living with you now, too?
STAR: No. He's still has his own separate space. This is like a working space. I know there's a room back there that is mine but I can't even see it. It's a big roundish looking room. There's a curved room with the branch, it's very strange. Like it's round.
G: Do you have a dirt floor?
STAR: Yes, it's very natural. It's organic. Some reason it's very dry. Like there's pine needles on the floor or something. It's a nice place. It's nice in there. It smells good.
G: It's a good place for people to come and get healed.
STAR: Yes there's plants and herbs and it smells good. I bring food there when I forage. People just want to stay there because it feels good.
G: It's very connected to everything.
STAR: Yes, it's very natural, feels good. And the thing is there are fields close by so it's not just dark all the time. Because I love the sun, I love the sky. And I liked to look at the sky too then.
Move her ahead to the very last day in that lifetime.
STAR: I'm really old. And the girl is grown and she's there. And the guy is there, too. He's still around. He's okay. He's old. I'm a bit older than him. He's been with me the whole time. We have books on the table. The books are done. There's books on the table, they are beautiful. They are in a stack on the table. There are three of them.
G: You finished your books about the plants -
STAR: And the healing, and the connection and the words and the oneness. It's about the magic of the connection of all these things. I see the connection of the physical world. I'm not spiritual, it's more of an earthly connection, that I'm really here. I feel very peaceful. Like I did what I needed to do and I feel loved and that I had purpose and that I shared what I knew. And this girl knows even more. She knows even more than I've taught.
G: She's adding her own intuition, instincts, education into what you already know.
G: Can you see the books on the table, can you see the names on the books? You said what they were about and that there were three books.
STAR: They're leather. They're thick books. They're bound really nicely. I don't know how we did that but they're bound by hand.
G: So you probably wrote on the pages in ink, maybe sealed them with glue.
STAR: I think so, let me look at the cover. The one cover looks like flowers. That's about plants and flowers. They're carved into the leather or pressed into it so that the leather has the impression of a flower. It doesn't look like it has a title. There's no words on the cover it's just the flowers. Let me look at the other one. I'll move the one on the top. The other one seems to be about the animals and their behaviors. How they interact. It's more about the connection between things. How they function together, how they mesh. It's more about how I see the things, how they go together, what they have in common and how they work together. I figured out that it's essential that they don't act alone. They have each other and they need each other to create this thing that I lived in my whole life. They're really interdependent on each other. Like the one thing does this for the other thing and then that thing does this for that thing.
G: Things that you would never have expected if you hadn't tried living among them.
STAR: Yes, like how important they are.
G: Because they didn't run away from you. They were actually able to live around you and do the things that they normally did.
STAR: And I saw them do things that other people didn't get to see. I saw when they had babies and how they took care of them. And how they built their homes, what they made their home and how important that was.
G: Yes, a lot of people don't usually get to see where the animals live at.
STAR: It's really about that. And the birds, and how the birds help the plants pollinate and all the insects. And just how they do all that stuff, how necessary they are and how every one of them is really important.
G: These books are very important, it will give people a new understanding. Maybe these are things that are like brand new information for them.
STAR: I just wrote it and I don't even know why, just because it needed to be there. And they're still going to write, they're going to keep writing.
G: So can you see what the other book is about? You have the one on the flowers, the one on the animals-
STAR: And they're about the inter-connectedness. The other one is the story of my life. It's just about how it all happened. Its a journal. I write what I learned that day, where I went, who I met, what I learned that day diagnosing a person, what helped somebody.
G: Oh, I see. So it's providing remedies, too.
STAR: Yes, it's just like an account of things that I did and things that I made. Like if I made some kind of herbal thing and if it worked.
G: So you would write about what you used and how you got those things.
STAR: It's just general, like lab notes almost, but it's part journal, part story.
G: Are these books things that would still exist nowadays or have they just long since passed?
STAR: Maybe somewhere. They're sturdy, but maybe they could have been burned. I don't know how acceptable it was. Especially from a female because I don't think that women were allowed to write books. I don't think that they were supposed to have knowledge. They were supposed to be wives and have children and not really ask questions or say anything. Or say if they thought something wasn't right.
G: So you were pretty fortunate to have the family that you did and the friend that you had, the young girl who came and helped you.
STAR: And I think the distance from the town. I think that was the thing. I had a very small life in a way and in another way it was also huge. I only had the two people that I was really close to and my family, but they thought I was a little odd so they liked me but they also didn't understand me so they didn't know how to communicate with me that well.
G: They didn't try to force you to behave differently but they couldn't actually relate to you.
STAR: Yes, I was a female rebel and that was really rare. But I didn't rebel in an outward way. I was just rebelling in this quiet, grounded way. Like I just want to write this stuff down, you know, have fun with it but also share this amazing stuff. Get this stuff out there because people don't know that it's here. I think it was just that – just being there.
G: You were honoring that truth that was inside of you by living that kind of life. It was a very independent life.
STAR: But it was good. It was a good life. I don't feel like anything was overly conflictual. I was just harmonizing with what was there.
G: And really creating a message to share with everybody, too.
STAR: To share that harmony, just if you let yourself live in it. Just to be in it. So I don't feel pain or anything.
G: So you don't feel like you died from a particular physical cause, maybe just that you were old.
STAR: I think I was just done. I feel peaceful. I don't feel awful. I understand that things die because I've been among them for so long.
G: The whole cycle of birth, life, death.
STAR: I mean I don't really want to leave but it's just that there's no more.
G: You understand this body isn't something that you could stay in.
STAR: I feel tired enough and creaky, and you know and things hurt just because I'm old. And maybe I can't see so well anymore and maybe I can't write anymore.
G: I want you to talk to me about what happens after the transition. After you've moved through this and you're up above the body. You've left your physical body. I want you to look around and talk to me about how you're feeling after you've made this transition to leave your body behind you. What does it feel like to you?
STAR: I mostly feel really happy because I feel satisfied because people cared about me. And because I helped people, I can see their reactions now that I'm gone. But they've also connected to the new girl that's there and they feel like they trust her just as much. I feel like I left everything in a nice place. I feel like that's going to be okay for a while. My mate person is sad though and that makes me sad.
G: Even though he knows, it's just hard to let go after it's happened. Very hard to deal with.
STAR: And my mate person, he never really cultivated a lot of other relationships. He was the less social of the two of us. He was more of a quiet person. I was the talker. He would contemplate things. Like go into the woods, way into the woods and you know look at things and just be quiet. Just bring things back.
G: This is going to be hard for him. You were his connection.
STAR: It's a little bit hard to leave him because I feel a little bit responsible. I feel like I'm sad that he's going to be sad or that he's going to be alone.
G: But you understand that it's going to be a part of his job to learn how to conduct himself independently. So you feel responsibility there but you're truly not obligated there, it's only out of love and concern for him that you feel those things. But you're able to let go of him?
STAR: Yeah, and I also feel like he's going to be okay too. I don't feel like he's going to be one of those people that dies of sorrow because he's independent and he likes what he does. We never made our world about each other. We always had our independent things that we did.
G: That's nice that you both were able that to do what you wanted to. You could experience a relationship but you didn't have to take it to a different level, like if you were married and had that relationship to work on also.
STAR: I feel like we just didn't make that the most important thing. Like it was all equal. Like we had our work and helping people and it was all balanced.
G: That would be a nice way to live.
STAR: And I think we became that way just by being there, by being in nature and its balance we just naturally learned how to be balanced. Just by allowing ourselves to be in it.
G: More aware when you were in tune with nature you could see how simple life can be, I think we start to emulate that in our own lives.
STAR: And there's such a richness to it. We didn't need any things. We lived simply but yet it was so beautiful.
G: You guys were living in a land that was so beautiful and you were part of that.
STAR: It was abundant. And I don't think that there was winter there. I don't sense that it was ever really cold. It was pretty temperate. Not tropical or extreme. More like a rainy type of place. More like Oregon or Seattle, someplace like that. The trees were so big. Like so big.
G: A very ancient feeling.
STAR: Just so much wisdom.
G: As you're looking back on that life, what would you say is one of the greatest purposes in that life?
STAR: That you don't have to necessarily go anywhere, that you can grow inward. I didn't go anywhere but I grew inwardly. There's always somewhere to go inwardly. Always something new to learn, something new to share. I didn't have to go anywhere, I was always there. This was home. I knew what home felt like. And I let myself, I didn't try to fit myself in there. I wasn't trying to be anything, I was just being.
G: You had a very natural home and natural terms and observed and kept records.
STAR: And just shared with people- like look at this, try this. And of course people brought me things from the town so I did experience things, but I wasn't seeking them out.
G: And you probably just didn't have a great interest in that either, you were so focused on living in nature. Recording all the information that you did, you didn't feel like you were lacking.
STAR: Yes, I didn't feel like I wasn't missing anything, that there was something better to do over there. It was just contentment.
G: Do you feel like there was anybody in that lifetime that are people that are around you now.
STAR: I feel like that was (her friend), that was him. It felt like him right away. He is like that, very introverted, very earthy, very smart. Not needing to prove it. Just always finding new things. Just being that and not needing any praise about it. Like oh, it's just something that I do.
G: The young girl?
STAR: It feels like (names a friend), that's like how she feels like that young girl, playful, funny, fairy like. She was quite intuitive. She was wise beyond her years. Even as a kid. That's how she impressed me when she came there is that she was a kid but not a kid. She was able to understand these things at a young age. Just to be nurturing. To understand what it is to nurture people. Not from the standpoint of oh you're a woman, you're supposed to be a mother, but just like you feel it from an inner place.
G: When someone comes for help, you just want to alleviate their suffering.
STAR: Yes, because you can. Because it feels good.
G: She'll know what medicines to use, the methods to use thanks to the things that you've taught her.
STAR: And we did our own experiments too. Because she always said well, what about this? What if we do this, what about adding this to that because we hadn't done that.
G: Sounds like a good life.
STAR: It was good. It was good because it was powerful but not in an outward, worldly sort of way. It had nothing to do with that. Probably the number of people that knew about me were very small compared to the number of people.
G: And you were very protected where you were.
STAR: Right. And I guess through the people that came to me I touched other people that were never there.
G: They would travel to you and bring that information and medicine back to where their homes were.
Call in higher self for more information about lifetimes presented:
G: Why did you choose to bring forward the lifetime of the Roman guard who was protecting Caesar?
STAR: So that she could know that what it's like to dedicate one's self to something greater and believe in it fully, that there's no harm in that. And that's a good thing to experience in a lifetime. That it wasn't always the life in any way.
G: So it was about commitment? For her to see that she had a lifetime where she was completely committed to a cause.
STAR: And not to hold on to betrayal. To let it go. That it wasn't about her, or him – it was no reflection on what he did, what happened to him.
G: That that event was bigger, there was nothing he could do to stop that.
STAR: That change is not a failure. That sometimes things have to change that way.
G: Very suddenly, very big. And that event probably had a lot more to do with even the consciousness of the people living at that time.
STAR: It was time for him to be free. He did it. He didn't need to live to be old to learn that. It was not necessary.
G: So he learned the lesson that he needed to learn in that lifetime, so we let go that go into the past because the most important thing is the lifetime that “Star” is living right now. We want her to body to be healed, to be strong and healthy and for her to have a strong sense of guidance, of purpose. We understand and we're very grateful for this lifetime of the young man who was a guard for Caesar being brought forward and all of the wonderful traits he brought in. “Star's” welfare is our main concern and we don't want any harm to come to her. Why did you bring forth the lifetime of the young woman who lived in the woods, working with the young man and the girl?
STAR: For her to know that she could follow her own inner guidance even though society said differently, that woman's roles were something else. To let her know that there's no harm in doing that. In fact, it was the right thing to do. And that it can be peaceful, that it didn't have to be a belligerent or a fighting thing it could be just a quiet commitment. A quiet defiance. Without it being aggressive in any way.
G: Yes, it certainly was a rebellious idea at that time to be a woman who was reading, living alone, didn't get married.
STAR: But yet had a partner.
G: Right. So she definitely learned how to do her own thing by following her instinct but she wasn't a violent person, just the opposite – she promoted healing and was in touch with nature.
STAR: Just to be in harmony.
Went on to discuss the meaning behind some physical ailments that “Star” was experiencing. Addressing childhood headaches that continued:
STAR: The combination of her hitting her head when she was very young, her forehead and because she hit it on the front that it caused some kind of problem, it's like a signal problem. It was the shock that left a part of the brain not communicating the way it was.
G: Has this been healed or can you work on this for her today? I know she would appreciate any assistance for connection with her higher self.
STAR: It's okay now. It's clear. The last step was the work that she did in (a city), there was a brain stem that was leaking.
G: Was she aware of this?
Asked for specific healing for many particular health issues including stomach problems that the higher self said was rooted in the experience from being a guard for Caesar. Asked what would be helpful for her to pursue, noted that her parents who died young were musicians and that she enjoyed singing.
STAR: (Singing) is a great thing, always. That's a great thing for her to do. It releases a lot of her – she holds back things, words and she needs to learn how to use them more. She didn't learn to use her words in those lifetimes. She learned to write them down but now she needs to learn to say them. She needs to speak. She needs to speak. She needs to put them out. She needs to do it in a way that feels fun to her, do it in a way that is light and playful.
G: She was talking about creating some guided meditations. Would that be helpful for her to do?
STAR: That would come straight out of that lifetime as that woman, if she speaks out from that.
G: She could reconnect with the healer, the woman who was so in touch with nature and that would give her the creative insight for doing the meditations.
STAR: It would be really natural.
G: Yes because that was a lifetime that was all about creating, taking the pleasure that she saw in the natural world and sharing that with others.
STAR: I think it would help her to remember what it was like to be near the trees and to be the forest, to be the animals. She needs to remember what it feels like to let herself be natural instead of trying to be something all the time.
G: That's a message that you want her to know-
STAR: Stop trying so hard.
G: Just relax and be natural. That's something that we all need to remember. It's very easy to get overwhelmed and sometimes we need somebody to tell us to just relax and calm down.
STAR: She needs to remember that that woman was who she wanted to be without society telling her that she's supposed to be a certain way. She needs to follow her inner guidance a little more and worry about what people think a little less. It's really about being fun and being natural.
Asked for more insight about relationships she's in right now and advice:
STAR: Remember the balance that existed in that lifetime (of the woman) and that the work is just as important and that it can be shared, and be joyful. It doesn't have to be work. No one is saving anything, just enjoying your own life but also sharing it.
Discussed particular projects, asked what else she could do to help balance her body.
STAR: Take more interest in bringing more new things in all the time. Learning to cook new things. Trying to things just to try them. She tends to get stuck. She's a bit lazy. She needs a constant flow of new information.
G: To keep her invigorated... I'm asking the subconscious for anything additional, to make sure that she knows and remembers.
STAR: The past is the past. Take the lesson and be here now. Just love. Be that.