She stepped right into a battlefield and screamed. The air was thick with smoke, bombs were going off, people were dying on either side of her. She described the scene frantically, just horrified at what she was seeing. I made suggestions that allowed her to remove herself from the scene and just observe. She was shocked to discover that she was a man. She said that she was 19 years old, was wearing a grey uniform with grey buttons and did not have a helmet. She was very angry. She'd been living a good life on a farm. Was quite content there with family and it was a simple, nice life. They called her in to fight this war without proper training or equipment. It was sad to hear "him" say that he did NOT want to be there! "This is not my fight!" I remember her saying repeatedly, and, "They don't care about us! This is just a big game to them and they don't care that my whole life is over now - I know I'm going to die! There is just no way out of this! I was happy where I was, that was my life! And now it's all over!"
The scene that she described was horrifying. But had embedded itself so deeply, that it was difficult to transition. Finally, we were able to move through the moment of her death. There was no moving back to another day as is sometimes possible, to get more details of the life. It wasn't necessary either. The purpose of this session was orchestrated to reveal this moment and that is something that we can always rely on when doing this technique. The client will receive exactly what is important and relevant to them in this life, now.
We asked her subconscious why it chose this particular life. "Anger - it's the source of her underlying anger. She carries a lot of anger and it's heavy." We talked about how we are called upon to play different roles as learning experiences. Most importantly, she was able to see what that experience can do to a soul and to just release all of that. We declared the intention of moving forward, not wanting any of that residue of past trauma to affect her NOW and releasing all of that emotion and anger. It took a long time to work through these emotions, but when it was over, it was obvious. It felt like the air in the room turned from that of a battlefield to a quiet stillness of love.
She stood up and said she felt so much lighter and started laughing. This was such an amazing experience for both of us! We both felt as if we'd walked through a battlefield and here we were, on the other side, and learned so much. Mainly, to release emotions that weigh us down, that love is a much better way of experiencing life.
I was so happy to hear her say that she didn't feel angry anymore, and surprised that she had felt that way before at all. She didn't come across as someone who was angry. She is a very kind, generous, happy fun-loving person. But she said she felt that way a lot, that there was always this underlying ebb of anger, just ready to surface. Now, she said, she felt so much lighter!